We won’t mention yesterday:

Sometimes it amazes me how one person can claim to love another and not say one word to even show they remember it is your and his wedding anniversary. Two entire years and most of the time I have dreaded it. So enough about that day.

http://www.10000reasons.org/
You must check out this web site It's hilarious, disturbing, and oh-so-telling all at once. Paris Hilton has retained the dubious honor of being the #1 reason our collective sky is falling for weeks now, and if you think about it, there is probably more truth and insight to be found in that fact than we're capable of facing up to. Surely you can think of one or two to contribute to the list. I'm wondering if 10,000 reasons is, in fact, enough.

I read back through these "pages" every now and then. When I am feeling stuck, or am wondering how exactly time really did fly, or am just flat bored. The thing I find most shocking is how redundant I can be. Over and over. There is a definitive cycle in motion, that has rotated without end, skipping beats now and again, but mostly wobbling on and on like an old hard played broken record.
I want a change.
I need a change.
Even a change for change's sake.
I want to move to Alaska. Or get a new winter coat. Or get in my car and drive for endless, countless miles with my cell phone dark and dead in the trunk. Or paint my nails a different shade of pink.
I don't know where to start explaining how the feeling overtakes me to points of distraction.
I feel driven to make a change of some significance; maybe even a bunch of them, all at once. A kaleidoscope full of them, crashing around in a series of rapid fire pretty pictures made up of shiny shards of change.
This is not new. It's 'everything old is new again'. But it's not new.
Something about this needs to be new.
Even if it's just me, figuring out how to be the change I want to live.
In small, stickable steps.