I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.

Am I sad, of course I am.  Things just keep moving forward with nothing different.  I try to find the joy of things but I can't.  I know I was not born in this world to be treated special.  But at some point it would be nice to have the tables turned.  I could make a list all complied in my head that keep me the saddest but it won't change anything.  

I have been told to many times "your tears don't affect me" and don't you know I believe him.  But will my death.....

Only time will tell.