Should I eat the cookie......hummmm

Is "fat" really the worst thing a human being can be? Is "fat" worse than "vindictive", "jealous", "shallow", "vain", "boring", or "cruel"?.....not to me.     J.K. Rowling


So for most people I harp on my weight more than I should.  Their feeling is I should just stop talking about it and do something.  Jeez......now that's a thought.  I think I have been doing something about it since I turned 18.  So now there is where lies the problem.  Maybe at 52 it is time to just stop and smell the roses.

I remember a time.....nope that's gone to.  I can try to recall when I was younger and food was not my enemy.  I could run, bike and play till the sun went down, and for much of my childhood life that is exactly what I did. 

Then I hit puberty and that stupid baby fat just sat there, it wanted more of me and I let it.  I fed it 5 pregnancies, many late night ice cream runs and moments of happiness that only a person who grew up poor could understand.

In my life the only happy memories were going to the grocery store to buy food.  It was a family affair and both my parents were in a good mood.  This meant there was money to spend on food.  We would have a ~ sit down at the table, fill your plates, and gorge until the moon came up meal that night.  The entire family would "talk", "laugh" and actually "smile".  I loved those moments.

So for me food is not about the sad lonely times, it's about happy, bottom of the gut laughter with my kids and husband.  I don't eat because I'm sad ~ I eat because I'm happy.  How the hell do you fix that Einstein....  yeah fix that one, person who has all the answers. 
hummmmm no comment. 
Figures.